[soubi]

it's been a long time since i wanted to get to know someone.

for years i've known that i belonged to one person.

months spent thinking that friendship was an unnecessary luxury.

now as i come to think of my own ability to communicate, i realize that i'd lost it somewhere on the way... i'd lost my smile and my talent of making everyone around me feel somehow interesting.

and i have no one to blame for that except myself.

it's just that... i wish i could be friendly enough to those i'd like to communicate with. i wish they'd make the first step, not me. i almost crave for it.

and still it feels wrong, this desire to make connections of other kind but the Fighter-Sacrifice one.



i wish someone would prove me wrong.